I'm depressing myself so much tonight. I dont know whats wrong with me lately. I started cleaning out drawers and going through all this junk i have and i have just so many photos. Anyway, i fing these pictures of maxine i took on my trip and i look at her and its like the way she looks isnt at all how i remember her and i'm suddenly so upset that i'm not remembering her properly and that i feel like the longer i'm away the more details i forget....i cant take this.
then to make it worse i find 2 pictures of abby i took not too long before she died and i just got so upset liek my chest got so tight and i couldnt breath and i just sat there almost forcing myself to breathe....i'm a mess today...
18 days and counting......
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